A Pre Open Heart Surgery Letter to My Sons
My beloved sons Connor and Ian,
I love you both so much, words are truly inadequate to express how I feel. And while I fully expect to recover from surgery, there is a remote chance that I could not so I wanted to take some time to share with you both my reflections about life, what I’ve learned, and what I hope you both, in time, will fully understand.
We are eternal. The body dies but the energy, which is who we truly are, lives on forever. We have chosen to incarnate here on Earth to learn how to love. Not love as a sentimental emotion but love, which is the embodiment of God itself. It is vast, intelligent, creative, kind, forgiving, generous energy that knows that we are all one. You are made of the same energy, compacted in this body to learn how to navigate the complexity of this dimension with love.
Be honest. Be true to your own heart. Live life fully. Don’t take life for granted. Strive to be whole. Do the work to heal from the trauma that results from living in this dimension filled with people who are not yet awake to their Divine nature. Be generous. Find ways every day to be of service to something greater than your own perceived needs. Meditate every day consciously connecting to the energy of love and gratitude and soak in that energy for at least 30 minutes a day. If you do that you will heal and your perception of life and of the living will change too.
Find softness. Life has a way of creating sharpness within. Melt that sharpness with love and gratitude. Radiate love to the unhealed places within you. If someone triggers you realize the trigger is yours and it is a call to heal. Realize that someone else could experience the very same situation and have a completely different reaction; therefore you must understand your reaction is yours and if negative it means there is something within you that needs healing.
If you don’t like where you are in this life right now, do something different! A small change in your daily choices can begin to help you shift. Visualize the life you want, see it in all its dimensions, connect to how you want to feel and feel it. Give sincere thanks for this future state and let it go. Knowing as you surrender and release it, the universal energies begin to create it and you begin to build the neural circuits to support this new state of being. Seriously, do this every day!
Work hard. Success requires effort and discipline. If you are avoiding doing something that you know is in your best interest just realize your system prefers what it is used to and clings to the familiar. Bust through this first by visualizing yourself doing what you are avoiding and feel yourself enjoying the results of your new efforts.
Make amends. If there are people you have harmed in any way, own it and find a way to make amends by at least sincerely apologizing to the person you have harmed and ask for forgiveness. If that’s not possible, do it in prayer.
Speaking of prayer, ask your guides and angels every day to assist you in living your highest good. Ask for the resources, people, and insights you need to come forth to support you in living and embodying your highest good, your highest blueprint. Remember in your heart is a blueprint to guide your actions in this life. Listen to your heart, do as it directs and you’ll find yourself living out your highest intentions for this incarnation. Do this every day.
Have fun! Do the things you love. Spend time in nature. Travel. Talk to strangers as you travel to learn about their values and how they live. There are many different ways to express life. Intend to find your purpose by delving deep within and asking your higher self why you’ve come here. Listen to your inner guidance and take actions that align with that inner knowing.
Be good to one another. A brother bond can be one of the strongest available to anyone. Don’t take each other for granted. Be curious about each other. I witness you both making assumptions about each other. Instead, learn…Create a shared understanding of each other by having honest, vulnerable dialogue. Strengthen your love by compassionate, appreciative inquiry. Your differences when harnessed with love and a sense of purpose can be a magical energy that supports what you want to accomplish here. Harness the strength of your bond by nurturing it.
Know that I love you and will always look out for you whether I’m here on Earth or in some other dimension. I am so proud of how you both have transcended addiction and I hope what remains unhealed within you, you choose to take on and love so you can transcend it.
And for the moments where I have failed, forgive me. I have strived to be a good, loving mother to you both and know that loving you both has been the greatest joy of my life.
I love you both infinitely.
Mom
